My name is Mariam Arbolishvili, 23 y/o from Tbilisi, Georgia.
I am about to finish my EVS project in Riga. Only though that I have now is to speak my EVS experiences. From here, my previous life seems so far. To be honest, my mind is so busy now to spend my last week in Riga with my friends, I don't really remember why I came here.
There is not much to say about my life, if you remember Tiko Abuladze, previous volunteers from Georgia, I can say that, my life was not so different from hers. How ever, modern world gives you guidelines, how to live, where to work, who you need to love, what to dress, what to eat, how to look.
In this global mess, the most difficult part is to understand who you are, what you actually want and admit that you are not happy at all.
Like I said, it is the most difficult part, because everyone around you doing the same and pretending to be happy.
Like most of the people in my country, I also finished school and then university. After this, everyone waiting from me to continue master program, but when I said that, I need time to understand what I actually want, my friends and family were very confused and surprised.
From the beginning, it seems so easy to follow the rules, but I learn that if you are/can not doing this, don't even expect that someone will understand or support you. In my case, after bachelor degree I start working in many different places: I was working as a researcher in marketing company, as an manager in hostel, as an social media manager, I was writing blogs, were involved in human rights activism, I was tour guide, meeting people from around the world, traveling. I was hardly looking my place, looking for inspiration, looking for my dream job, that makes my life more meaningful. I spent in this routine more than year.
In the end I was so desperate, thinking that there is no way out, I will spend my whole life in searching and curiosity. And in this real despite moment I find EVS project in Latvia. I never heard about EVS before, I never thought to visit Latvia, I didn't even meet someone from Latvia before. But I thought that it was my chance that universe gave me and I need to use it.
And after 2 weeks I was packing and saying goodbyes to my friends. It was so unexpected for everyone, even for me. But now, when I am still saying goodbyes to my Latvian and EVS friends, I feel that I did great thing, and feeling proud myself that I made this decision to came in Latvia.
I know it is different story, but in the end I can say that EVS helps me to create myself from zero, to trust my feelings and follow my dreams, that everything will be fine one day!